It's been a little while since I've posted for MHAA on Facebook, but I posted last night and I thought I would share it with you all here. For anyone suffering from depression, anxiety or any other mental illness, the MHAA page is a great support. I will link it below, but here is my tenth post ☓
Hi MHAA Members,
I'm sorry it's been a little while since I posted last. Starting back at work has been quite an adjustment for me, and trying to find a balance between that and everything else is difficult.
I've been doing quite well and getting through my hours at work - some days not too bad, some days a real struggle, but I'm proud of that and what I've been able to achieve these past couple of months. My blog is doing well and I've been able to be a little more social.
One thing I've realized though, is to never take the 'okay' days for granted. It tends to always be around the time I start thinking 'hey, I'm doing pretty good at the moment', that I end up falling in a heap again. So I'm slowly trying to figure out what my limits are and what I can realistically expect from myself at this point in my recovery.
The past few days have been a bit tough. I've been feeling overwhelmed, and last night I found myself lying awake and crying for no apparent reason - just having that feeling of no matter what I do, or try, nothing will ever make me feel any better. Whenever these kind of feelings hit, I start to panic and think "well here I go, back to square one again". Anxiety has that ability to instantly change my logical thinking mind into a completely irrational mess. It's an unwanted reminder that it wasn't so long ago I was at rock bottom. But all we can do is our best, right? No one can ever expect any more than that, even ourselves - especially ourselves!
I hope you're all doing well and life is being kind.
Sending love & strength always ☓
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